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Nitesky
06-03-2007, 12:16 PM
He looked outside

The world was peaceful. Everything was in place – all was shrouded by the shadows of the night. They were all in grey and black, their hues combining, joining. The velvet sky was unadorned except for the half moon dangling in it. It wasn't right... there was something missing. The stars. Where were they? There was no sign of them. No sign of their beauty. Their art.


Were they weeping for him? Maybe. These stars – they were his witnesses in the darkness. They knew. They know who he is, and what he lacks. They knew of the pain accompanying his every breath in the lonely night. He knew they were hiding behind those murky masses of clouds. They didn't want to see what he will do tonight.



He looked away from them. There was no point looking for them tonight. They can't stop him. Nothing can. In his desperation, everything was possible. Pain is welcome.


He turned his gaze to the dull piece of metal and held it tightly in his hand. His reflection stared back at him. Yes. A reminder of his inheritance. Inheritance from two people who claimed to be his parents. They never understood him, or his intentions. They didn't even know their son.


He focused his attention once more on the sharp blade. It was slim, and light. Its cold, smooth surface was the only thing he could feel in his hands. It was perfect – in his hands was an instrument of destruction. An instrument to destroy all the chains that bind him to his fate. He studied it once more, his eyes raking over the muted luster of the knife. The edge. It was sharp and keen. He looked at it with grim determination.


He striked.


The edge came in contact with the skin on his right wrist. He observed his wound and watched the drops of blood fall on the floor.


He smiled through his pain.


The intoxicating smell of blood lingered. He breathed it. His blood. He could see his blood trickling from his broken skin. It moved unhurriedly in a rhythmic movement. Slowly. Painfully. His blood was writing patterns on the floor.

Written in blood. Yes. He used to think of himself as a writer. A writer hidden from the world. Secluded. He believed that he was alone, even in the midst of the crowd. He was alone, for they were all strangers. Nobody knew him. Nobody tried.


Everything he wrote... he believed in them. They were the life flowing through his veins. What was their use? For others, they were words and words alone. They never understand. They said they admired him – his skills, his style, his fire. His ability to take words and claim them. Take them in flight.

It was all flattery.


It meant nothing to him.

He brought the blade back to his wrist. The pain intensified and the blood from his wrist dropped faster. He striked deeper. With desperation. Goodbye, numbness. Pain is a step closer to owning himself.


The smell of rust floated around him.


The stars still hadn't come. He couldn't blame them. From an outsider's point of view, what he did... well, it was horrifying. He wouldn't be able to offer an explanation for his actions. Reason ruined the world he wanted to live in.

rottentomato
06-03-2007, 12:22 PM
hmm...

i thought it was interesting, but im not sure i wanted to pull out the hidden meanings in this that i did.

Nitesky
06-03-2007, 12:24 PM
I did not write! My bro wrote it. He obviously understands stories better

rottentomato
06-03-2007, 12:26 PM
kudos to your brother then. its a pretty interesting ditty, very deep and morbid. id be interested to hear your brothers views on death.

Nitesky
06-03-2007, 12:27 PM
o.o ANOTHER WHO SOUGHTS MY BRO AS A WRITER

Nitesky
06-03-2007, 12:33 PM
Nobody knew of his plans. They'd never know unless he told them. People could be so wrapped up in their own worlds at times. He laughed mirthlessly. They were the people who believed him to be intelligent... strong. He thought these people were fools. Fools who believed that they saw the beauty of life. Fools who accept everything that's in front of them. Fools who never knew what pain and loneliness meant.


Was this cowardice? He asked himself as he let his fingertips graze the drops of blood on his hand. Suicide was for cowards who run away from their problems. Was he a coward? Was he running away from it all? He frowned. No. This was valor. He was fighting back. He was a prisoner of people's expectations. Tonight, that would no longer be the case. He let his soul burn to own it.


He gripped the handle tightly. His hand held it steady, its point aimed at his heart. He was aware, alert. Open. It's all going to end, he said to himself. It will.


He saw each drop of blood on the blade, his calm reflection on the tainted steel. He could hear every beat of his heart. Every moan of the wind. Every rustling of the leaves. The soft breathing of the people he will leave forever. He left them no note because he can't bring himself to say goodbye. He already left them with memories. They were enough. His words – they were all here. They spoke for him. Now the world was going to know he lived when his breath has left him. It was near. So very near. He was waiting for death to come through his door. It will come. It would never slip away... it was near. Unbearably near. As near as he had imagined it a million times. Death. An old friend. He died a little each day. He might as well make it reality. He had waited for it. Now he was ready. The world didn't know that prisoner was going to escape. He didn't know that he will die in order to live.